A Moment of Honesty

Well, I’m excited about this space because I have so much to share. I’ve been through a lot in my life.
Some things I’ve never shared, but at 47 years old, I guess it’s time to stop hiding from who I really am and what I have experienced in my life.
I lost my dad in 2022 and my life changed forever. It’s almost like I lost control over my life because my mom became a widow and started requiring more of my time; which makes me feel pulled in more directions than I can mentally handle.
I am a single mom of four; 25, 18, and 12 year old twins. My oldest is launching a business and trying to find her footing with that after graduating with two degrees and no job prospects to help fund her dream, my 18 year old is also a business owner, juggling clients, college, and a new boyfriend who I’ve been quietly giving the side eye to.
He’s a young man who thinks I haven’t already read him like a book and I know what he wants from my daughter; but trying to get her to see that is like pulling teeth without Novocaine.
Then there’s my twins, the twelve year olds, dealing with an illiterate teacher who doesn’t like the fact that my twins are smart and often catch her mistakes. She’s not one who likes to be challenged; especially by kids, and she doesn’t like having her massive ego deflated.
Partner all of that with the fact that I have a business of my own to run, but no time to actually ‘work.’
I love to create; whether it’s writing something, drawing something, or making something. But over the last three years, the time to do that has slowly been stripped away and I don’t know what to do to stop it, and my bank account has certainly been reflecting the lack of devotion to my work.
I need to reclaim my time, my life. But how???
I have been spending days feeling drained, a little helpless, and dealing with a huge lack of motivation.
Hopefully this will be the spark I have needed to get back in action…
~Sandra~