Rain

The rain blesses my vision, acting as a blurry shield from my reality.
I believed that OnlyDiary had potential, and I spent three months pulling it out of my mind, detail for detail.
Things were already falling apart in my life before I started building this platform.
I didn't have 3 months to give to building it. I was too broke, had too much debt, had too many problems.
But it was the loudest thing in my mind, and I had to get it out or I wouldn't be able to hear anything else.
I knew there was a chance I may not finish the project.
There was a chance I would reach a part during the build that I couldn't figure out.
I still began building, one concept, one description at a time, one button at a time, one feature at a time.
I knew I had to build it, and as I was building it, I felt such a strong connection to God that I just kept on building.
Building with tears in my eyes, praying that I'm doing the right thing with the time I have been allowed me to exist.
The fear of spending full days for months inside of a codebase– with no guarantee that I'll get anything for it.
The scary thought of potentially getting nothing while needing everything.
The world changed many times during my journey here, and hopefully there's room for me where I'm still trying to go.
#faithwalk